All of last year my cell phone did not work well at my place of employment and I would frequently go home with a drained battery. It was frustrating. This year, going back to work started out the same. However, last night I gained some insight. Alyssa and I were chatting and somehow wound up talking about our cell phones. I told her about the terrible service and the dead battery. Alyssa explained to me that my phone is looking for service; it is actually using all the energy in the battery trying to find service.
I reasoned then that it was not enough for me to turn my ringer off at work, I must shut the whole phone down when I am in that place. Only then will my battery cease to be drained and my phone able to use when I get in the right spot. I told the Lord this morning, "You must have something to teach me with this." He did.
He said it is like me. I get into some small dark area of serving myself; one no one else would even notice because it is just a little compromise, and I am unable to serve Him there. I am born again, to serve Him. How often am I frustrated and exhausted because I am trying to serve Him in self? But there is no service available here. He doesn't expect me to do anything for Him; He just wants me to obey. As my friend Chelsea recently reminded me, even a child without wisdom can obey.
Colossians Chapter 3
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Monday, April 11, 2011
God's Heart Beat...
Today I took the song I wrote to a very talented young man at my church and watched as he began to translate it on paper. Three years ago I asked God for a lullabye for my grandson. At that time, I had a yellow slip of lined paper with the words of Psalm 121 tucked inside my Bible (one of the ladies from Bible study had given it to me for encouragement). As I looked at the Psalm, the words seemed to change order slightly, a melody came into my mind and some more words came too. I wrote and I sang until I had the song memorized. I have sung it to all four of my grandchildren and watched them fall asleep as though God Himself was lovingly, soothingly, lulling them to sleep. I do not know much about music at all except that I love to listen to it and I love to sing. I wanted to record this, especially for my grandchildren who live so far away in Virginia. Joshua wrote out the key in which it is written--C#. He wrote out the tempo; there are three different tempos contained in the song. Finally, he wrote some numbers and letters--137bpm. I looked at the notation and thought, "That must mean beats per minute." I expressed my thoughts out loud and Joshua confirmed them. On the way home it occured to me that I have a heartbeat, measured in beats per minute. This made me think that God's own heartbeat is in this song, at the rate of 137 beats per minute. I do not mean to be irreverent or to put God on the same level with humans. I know that He is holy and so high above His creation; I just felt so close to Him. He gave me the melody, the words are His words right from the Bible. Life happens so fast and memorable moments are so easily forgotten in the chaos of life. I want to cherish this experience with my God and writing helps me remember.
Saturday, April 2, 2011
Oh the Joys!...
Oh the joys of community blogging! The contest I entered on "The Writer's Beat" ended on the 30th of March. Out of the thousands of members in this community, a total of about eight people voted. There were so many submissions (about 15), they had to divide them into two groups, therefore, I got to vote twice! I voted once for mine and once for another story I really liked (I am so glad I was able to vote for her story also). It looks like there were some ties, but I do not know what they do now. There has been no official notices of anything. I tried to get on the "Newbies Nook" in my "FaithWriters" site, but I could not figure out how to do this. I long to have someone show me step-by-step how to navigate these pages. Even on this blog site, I frequently wander until I get where I want to be, never really sure how I arrive, and so I am destined to wander again and again...
Sunday, March 27, 2011
I Just Have to Share This With You...
Easter is coming soon! I am so excited! It makes me think now of the theme for the writing contest I entered (unknown memories), and I wanted to share it with you. There is nothing more important or worth celebrating more than Jesus. I hope you are blessed in reading (and even more in believing)!
The End
It was the final week. Life in the flesh as I had known it was coming to a close. I had not been here before, but each scene that unfolded before me was hauntingly familiar.
I told my associates to get me a colt to ride upon. I knew where they could find it and I knew they would have no trouble acquiring it for me. It was mine, but I would return it. My associates did just as I told them. One person asked my associates what they thought they were doing, but retreated when they told them I had need of it. Zechariah had said it would happen just as I am recounting it for you now.
My associates put their coats on the animal’s back and I sat down on it. Although the colt had never been ridden before, it yielded docilely to me. Many people laid out palm branches and coats before me to ride upon as they shouted my praise. “Hosanna in the Highest!” they exclaimed. Others were angry and said I should make them stop. It was my world, and these were my people; the praise was justified. I did not, however, thrive on the praise of men; I only needed the approval of one.
I knew the praise would not last; people are fickle. I knew that I had to leave; I was going back to the place from which I had come. I was going back to the place where those memories were written when I had not yet lived even one of them.
Those who were angry with me sought my death vigorously. I escaped them repeatedly, but the time was drawing near when I would surrender myself to them (how foolish they were to think they would capture me!)
My closest allies had followed me loyally; they were with me even now, but they were asleep. My associates missed the urgency of the hour because what I was about to do was incomprehensible.
In my flesh, I sweat great drops of blood; I knew what was coming and I sought another way. There was no other way. My world was broken, my people were broken. There were others too, that needed me. I wanted them. I wanted them all. I did not want to oppress them—although I certainly had the power to do so!
They were condemned people, destined for hell. The law was precise in defining right and wrong, and the penalty for doing wrong. Not one of them was guiltless. I, on the other hand, was completely innocent. I had the power to condemn them to the sentence they deserved. I also had the power to pay the debt they had incurred. I set my face like flint to do the unthinkable, alone.
A heavily armed mob came for me in the dark of night. I had been praying while my associates slept. I woke them up and told them the time had come. I faced the mob without resistance, but one of my closest allies, Peter, bless his heart, tried to defend me. He cut off one of the men’s ears. I told Peter to put his sword away as I put the man’s ear back on his head.
Later on that night, I watched as that same brave man, Peter, denied ever having known me. Peter’s cowardice here did not provoke me to recoil any more than his earlier, nobler deed inspired me to continue toward my goal. I do not change like men and women. Everything I have ever done was based on who I am, not on what people thought or think of me.
I was falsely accused, covertly arrested and unjustly tried at night. My jailers felt free to mock me—beat me even, under the cloak of darkness. (Why do men think no one sees in the dark? Are not babies formed perfectly in the dark confines of their mothers’ wombs?) I knew exactly who they were and what they were doing—even when they blindfolded me. I accepted the ridicule and the humiliation (though this was undeserved), just as I had accepted the praise. No one seemed to notice. (Do they notice even now?)
The sentence was passed, death by crucifixion. My enemies reveled in my defeat. My allies hid themselves from my distress. None of them knew my impending doom would be my greatest victory. How could they? “They pierced My hands and My feet; I can count all My bones. They look and stare at Me. They divide My garments among them, And for My clothing they cast lots.” How many years had it been since I read this Psalm of David? Hundreds I am sure. Now, I lived them. I breathed my last and it was finished; the debt was paid.
I was dead once, but now I live, never to die again. This too was written before; it is the sweetest of victories, both for me and all who trust me.
Friday, March 25, 2011
Something New!
I finally decided to do something new! I don't know why I did not do this in the first place! I will continue with my original community blog, since we are so close to the end of this class, but I just subscribed to a new place to see if I can get just a little more interaction. I do not yet know much about this site, but I read two articles I really liked. I will keep you posted...
http://www.faithwriters.com/corp-history.php
http://www.faithwriters.com/corp-history.php
Wednesday, March 23, 2011
Very Interesting...
I went onto my community blog today and found out that 24 people have read something I have written without one comment. I discovered someone else had 106 people view his or her writing with only three comments. This knowledge makes me feel much better about not having anyone respond to me, although it remains difficult to feel part of a community where there is little or no interaction. I still have not figured out how to tell how many people have viewed my contest entry, however, I will know something soon enough because today the voting starts! They broke the voting up into two groups of stories; I am in the second group. I am fine with this, I just don't know whose story to vote for! Though I have read a couple stories that I really like, I am partial to my own (do not know the protocol for voting on your own story:). I have a week to figure this out as voting closes on March 30. I discovered something else today. Under my sign-in name I have been given the designation "pencil pusher", and under that it says, "official member". I have no idea how or when I became an official member and how I got the designation of "pencil pusher". It is strange to become an official member of a community when I have no idea how I accomplished this! Obladee, Oblada, life goes on La!... (must I site the Beatles for this?...)
Monday, March 21, 2011
I learned something new...
I went on the Writer's Beat today and learned that other writers feel neglected too! Some of them have been writing on this site far longer than me. Others had suggestions for them. I made a comment and asked some questions on how to implement some of the suggestions I had read. I also went on the "Free Writing" space. You can write for ten minutes there about "whatever". I initially hesitated about writing there because I don't think it's necessarily a good thing to utter all your heart (which I am sometimes prone to do!), especially if you're in a "mood". I finally wrote there with caution and kind of enjoyed the experience. I hope to be able to look, maybe tomorrow or Wednesday, and see if there is a response there or not. Writers have said this is a place to garner comments on your writing rather than full critiques. Any sort of dialogue would give this site more of a community feel for me.
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